i haven't been out much lately~
nothing's new~
too tired~
been sick for like a month already~
vomitting blood~
everything seems vague~
argh~
forget it~
still missing someone i shouldn't be missing anymore~
someone told me that i'm not the type to be pinning for someone like this~
but~
the thing is~
you don't really know me well as of yet~
don't pass a judgement based on your own~
then today i received a call from him~
asking how am i doing etc etc~
i seriously don't know how the hell am i gonna answer that~
he asked me if i'm going out or something~
i told him~
i go out for what~
i no boyfriend go out for what~
he say in the past you got boyfriend also go out what~
i say i just wanna stay home (what i really wanna say is:"in the past i ask him out he also dun wan~ saying he's damn tired or that it's too late~ so i find friend to go out")~
then he say that beejun saw me the other day at cathay (should be that day when it was countdown coz i remember that that was the last time i was out with them the rest of my time is at home or go out with my mum to the hospital)~
saw me hugging someone~
i guess that someone should be horo bah~
then he though horo was my bf~
diaoz horo is younger than me by a few years~!
how the hell can he be my boyfriend?
i've no interest in any relationship anymore~
hurt too badly to even do anything~
i'm steering away from the relationships~
not gonna touch~
not gonna see~
not gonna hear~
all i wanna do is to stay at home and watch shows~
or just go to work~
dun feel like going out at all~
no mood~
no one~
nothing~
_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 5:29:00 pm__
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